Thursday, August 28, 2014

IF I WERE... and THE DRUNKARD'S WILL. 1841


Vermont Watchman and State Journal. August 2, 1841

From the Boston Transcript.
IF I WERE.

It is very apt to be the case that a man would do a great many good things if he were so and so situated, but that troublesome word “if” is apt to interfere with his good intentions. His professions are of the most patriotic and praiseworthy kind, and he would be the most kind-hearted, the most generous, the most benevolent man in the world, if it were not for certain things which intervene to prevent the fulfillment of his noble designs.

If I were a merchant, says one, I would always transact my business in the most honorable way, I would never take advantage of another, I would deal honestly with all, I would gain the respect of all, I would accumulate a fortune, and I would leave my children independent of the world.

If I were a farmer, I would devote my whole attention to the cultivation of the soil. I would raise the largest crops of wheat, the greatest number of bushels of potatoes to the acre, the largest cabbage heads, and I would have the neatest and best managed farm in the town.

If I were a rich man, I would appropriate all my surplus income to charitable purposes.

If I were a lawyer, I would always plead the cause of the poor and oppressed, and would deduct a large amount of the fees for my services. I would go against oppression in all cases whether it would subserve my interest or not. I would act for the general good of mankind, regardless of self-interest; I would make my own emolument secondary to that of all others.

If I were a tailor, I would not take more than a reasonable quantity of cabbage, and I would always have a garment done and sent home at the time I promised it.

If I were a physician, I would always attend upon the poor gratis, and I would not charge half so much for feeling the pulse or extracting a tooth as the regular practitioners do. I would devote my time and services for the benefit of the public generally.

If I were a mechanic, I would devote all my time to my profession, and I would always punctually execute all the orders sent to me.

If I were a soaplock, I would have the scissors applied to my hair at once, and not suffer myself to appear like a hermit or a shaggy bear, or a thief who has lost his ears, and strives to cover the parts where they should be, with a superincumbent quantity of capillary ornaments.

If I were a lady, I would be attending to the domestic concerns of the household, and not walking the streets, endeavoring to attract the attention of the beaux, and spinning street yarn when I ought to be spinning stocking yarn at home.

If I were an editor, I would write to please myself as well as my customers, so far as I was able, without the expectation of always doing the one or the other.

If I were a subscriber to a newspaper, I would always pay for it punctually, and never find fault because it sometimes happened that there was nothing in it which particularly interested me—especially, when there was nothing to put in it.

If I were born with a gold spoon in my month, I would hold on upon it, and not exchange it for a pewter or an iron one.

But that little word IF is apt to be in the way, and to disconcert all one's good intentions and charitable actions, and if it were not so frequently made a proviso and a base to good actions, many more deeds of charity might be accomplished. It is often an excuse for not performing what charity would demand, what common sense would dictate, what a sense of duty would require. If I were situated so and so, I would do a vast deal of good; but it is often the case that a man can do good deeds and acts of charity, which he pretends he would if he were differently situated.

But without any more ifs or ands, it is certain we can often do a good deed when we don't, and if is a kind of general excuse for not doing as we ought.

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The Drunkard's Will.—I leave to society a ruined character, a wretched example, and a memory that will soon rot.

I leave to my parents, during the rest of their lives, as much sorrow as humanity, in a decrepit and feeble state, can sustain.

I leave to my brothers and sisters as much mortification and injury as I could well bring on them.

I leave to my wife a broken heart, a life of wretchedness, a shame to weep over me, and premature death.

I give and bequeath to each of my children, poverty, ignorance, a low character, and the remembrance that their father was a monster.

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Another versions of
“IF I WERE...”:
Supplement to the Courant. August 21, 1841
Daily Bulletin. January 11, 1842

“The Drunkard's Will”:
Western Temperance Journal. October 15, 1841

Sunday, August 24, 2014

I CAN'T DO IT. -- I WILL DO IT! by B. J. L. 1840


The Family Magazine. Volume 7. 1840 || +1 || +2

“I CAN'T DO IT.”

WHAT a volume of human misery is unfolded in that short sentence! What mighty efforts of undeveloped genius are chained by this conclusion of despondency when a barrier chances to interpose the onward progress of the will and sometimes of mere volition! What domestic unhappiness—what downward marches of the otherwise worthy, toward the gloomy and solitary abodes of poverty—what anxious solicitude that fills the breast of the dependent wife—what arduous wrestlings with the demon of despair—what social wretchedness—what national evils are all depicted in the spirit of that expression! It is the language only of the self-made wretched—the determination of the weak and imbecile. It is the voice of the moral coward, who, standing upon the shore of some desolate island in the stormy ocean of life, and looking out upon the billows strewn with the wrecks of earthly grandeur and human happiness, is so blinded by fear that he cannot see the gleam of hope that flickers amid the surrounding gloom. It is the articulated feelings of the traveller of the desert, who, having gained an eminence, sees nothing but a barren plain before him, thirst parching his tongue and weariness subduing his strength. But shall he lie down without hope? Nay, let him press forward, make but one more effort, and a green oasis will meet his anxious vision—a cool stream will bubble up from some unseen fountain, and he will reach his journey's end crowned with the rich reward of perseverance.

How often do we hear “I can't do it” drop from the lips of a man possessed of bodily vigor and perfect health, when he sees uplifted before him a towering mountain of sudden misfortune. Let him reverse the expression, arm himself with the sword and buckler of firm resolve, and with the eye of encouragement look beyond the mighty mass, and he will see it begin to sink, and ere he believes his task begun he will find that he has bestridden the monster, leapt over the looming barrier, and the incident forms but a brief paragraph in the history of his life.

When the Boston printer (Franklin) entered Philadelphia, carrying all his worldly possessions upon his person, and a penny loaf under his arm, had he sat down upon the cold pavement, and shrinking from the task which the finger of genius pointed out for him to perform, exclaimed, “I can't do it,” a bright star would now be absent from the constellation of American renown, and humanity might mourn the want of a shield, against the lightning's wrath. Had the young warrior of colonial America surrendered his sword to the enemies of freedom when patriot hearts were chilled upon the frozen shores of the Delaware or the snowy desert of Valley Forge, and with desponding heart cried out, “I can't do it,” the valleys of the Ohio and Mississippi might yet have been howling wilderness, ourselves humble petitioners at the feet of a potentate of a far-off island, and this noble structure of civil liberty in the west—among the mysteries yet to be revealed. But such an expression was never written in their vocabularies—it is never written in any man's vocabulary who achieves mighty things. Its spirit should be avoided by youth as a luring syren whose song will lead them from duty and teach them dalliance. They should avoid practising its precepts, for they enervate the vigorous and crush the already weak. On the other hand, let your motto be, “I will do it,” and the mountain will become a mole-hill—the torrent will dwindle into a rill—the lions that beset your path will lose their fierceness and become metamorphosed into lambs—the vultures that prey upon your vitals will become doves—your feet will find but few stumbling-blocks, and the bright star of hope will never sink below the horizon.

Are you poor, remember, the temple of fortune is open as well to the child of poverty with his mantle and girdle, as to the pampered progeny of wealth who wears upon his breast a golden star. Are you friendless, remember, moral rectitude, modest excellence, persevering industry are sure to gather around you a shining circle of kindred spirits who will accompany you with offices of kindness to the threshold of the grave, and will embalm your memory in their hearts. These are the rewards of perseverance—these are the comforts of the energetic child of misfortune. When his motto is, “I will do it,” nothing is so extensive or mysterious in science that he cannot grasp and comprehend it, nothing so great or wise in jurisprudence that he cannot participate in its honors, nothing so holy in pious duty that he may not share the plaudit, “well done thou good and faithful servant,” and nothing so noble in human nature that he may not possess it and claim the brightest “legion of honor.” We would therefore say to youth, when you feel the impulse of genius urging you to the performance of some great task, at once obey its mandates; and although the timidity of your nature may curb your steps, obey but the voice of prudence, shut your ears against the evil councils of imbecility, and whatever may be the prize, whether in the forum, the camp or the pulpit, be assured that you may count it as your own if you listen not to the song of the idle sojourner, ever upon his lips, “I can't do it.”

B. J. L.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

THE YOUNG COUNTESS by Miss M. Miles. 1838 [fiction]


The Lady's Book. December, 1838

Written for the Lady's Book.
THE YOUNG COUNTESS;
OR, A FOLLY AND ITS CONSEQUENCES.
BY MISS M. MILES.

“MOTHER, I dare not tell him!”—And Amy Bryant laid her head on her mother's bosom and sobbed as if her heart were breaking. “With all my love for Percy Roscoe, there is no one who I fear so much—I dare not tell him.”

“Fear him, my child, then let your mother entreat you in the strength of her affection, not to harbor such a sentiment. Judge not hastily, Amy, you are very young, and Mr. Roscoe's grave manners may perhaps have caused this feeling. He is certainly generous and noble-minded.”

“But not the less strict in his ideas of propriety, mother, and his words were stern and cold when he extorted from me the promise of giving up the society of Isabel Tracy—and can I tell him that I have broken my word, that I have passed hours, nay, days in her company?

“Yes, Amy, tell him the truth—believe me it is best to deal openly with him. He will not brook deceit in any form; but why did you again extend an invitation to Lady Tracy to visit us at this time of sickness and sorrow? Even I, lenient as I am towards the follies of the young, have opposed the intimacy. She is a dangerous woman, with her insinuating manners, and bewitching beauty.”

“I could not avoid it, mamma, without giving the true reason, and I was afraid of her ridicule; you know her wit, and satire, has weapons that cut deep.”

“Ah! Amy, I fear this sensitiveness to the shaft of ridicule will cause your path to be a thorny one. It often leads you, my love, to distrust your own resolves, even when they are on the side of right; why, my child, care for the laugh of the worldly minded? Is not the approval of your conscience more to be desired than their approbation? Act yourself in this instance at least, Amy, and tell Mr. Roscoe the truth. He will respect you the more for it.”

“But, dearest mamma, why cannot you? He loves and respects you so, and you could soften it, whilst I should only stand confused and trembling.”

The sunset ray shone full upon Mrs. Bryant's pale countenance as she reclined upon a couch, supported by pillows; consumption was fast doing its work of death, and her wan and emaciated hand was laid solemnly upon her daughter's fair head, as she replied:

“But would it restore Percy's confidence in you, dearest; you know my days are numbered, and he has asked from me the right of being your protector when I am gone. Let my last days be made happy by the knowledge that there is no cloud over your love. This fear of your noble hearted lover is unworthy of one who owns the presence of a higher power. I am feebler to day, and the time is at hand when I must leave my only child with none in the world to watch over her, but him to whom she has given her young affections—let her not deceive him.”

But ere Amy could reply, Roscoe had entered the apartment, and was pressing the thin hand of Mrs. Bryant in his, unable to speak from his excess of emotion, whilst his other arm encircled the drooping form of the half fainting girl. He saw at a glance that there was a great change in the invalid, and his voice faltered with strong feeling as he said:

“Why, why dearest Mrs. Bryant did you not write before? I would have come at any hour.”

“I knew it Percy,” answered she with a faint smile, “but you had duties more imperative elsewhere. But you will be with me to the last, and”—but Amy raised her face with such an expression of agony upon her features that she stopped and sent her from the room upon some trifling errand for herself, ere she finished the sentence.

“And your father has promised to give you the Percy estate. That, together with your high talents, Percy, for you are acknowledged to be one of the most rising lawyers of the day, will ensure to you all the comforts of life, and my poor girl will experience no change. She can bring you nothing, but beauty and goodness; for my annuity dies with me.”

“Whilst I live, she shall never know change; and my kind father has been most liberal. But not a word more, now; you are already exhausted, and I hear Amy's step.”

“Amy, dear,” said her mother, “I am inclined to sleep, and Martha shall sit by me whilst you take a turn in the garden with Percy; you are pale with watching and care.”

For a moment the fair girl hesitated, and the crimson that stained her cheek almost mocked the hue of the bright cloud that was floating even then in the western sky; but her lover's eye was full upon her face, and she dared not refuse when he drew her hand within his own, and said—“Come Amy, I have much to say to you.”

They wandered forth, on that eve of beauty, and she felt its sweet influences in her inmost soul. Gradually the feverish excitement under which she had been laboring became stilled, and gently and tenderly did he prepare her for the trial that so soon awaited her. Deeply grateful for his kindness and sympathy, Amy more than once opened her lips to tell him that she had broken her word, but the thought of his indignation was more than she coud bear at such a time. “I cannot wound him now,” was her thought, “to-morrow I well tell him all.”

There was a deeper change upon the face of Mrs. Bryant when they again stood beside her couch, and Amy entreated permission to remain with her during the night, and the mother could not deny her.

“Martha!” said Percy, as he closed Mrs. Bryant's door for the night, and passed into the kitchen where the old domestic and her husband, the only two servants who had followed Mrs. Bryant's variable fortunes, were sitting in mournful silence—“Martha, will you put lights for me in Miss Amy's little study? Mrs. Bryant is very low to-night, and I will sit up there; the nurse is with her, and your young mistress will not leave her.”

The tears fell fast over the withered cheeks of the old woman as she rose up to comply with his request. Mrs. Bryant's husband had been an officer, and these two faithful creatures had been servants of her own father; but they followed her whom they had seen grow up from a blooming child, through all the trials and vicissitudes to which she had been exposed; and when she returned a widow and orphan to her native land, upon a straitened income, remained to share her fallen fortunes.

“Ah! master Percy, these are sad hours,” said she, “it seems but yesterday since I saw my poor mistress a bonny bride, and the gallant captain, bless his memory, looking at her so pridefully—and she is young yet to die;” and her tears flowed faster. Percy, much affected, turned away.

Night waned, but still the young girl kept her lonely vigil by the sick bed. The nurse was in a deep sleep, her services being dispensed with, and she sat watching the laboured breathing of her only parent. Ah! that lonely watch by the deathbed of those we love—when the deep stillness of night is around us—the garnering up of every last word as they fall faintly from the pallid lips, and of the smiles of lingering love whose light will soon fade from earth—

“Oh! not an hour like this
For bitterness, has life.”

Midnight came, and Mrs. Bryant unclosed her eyes—Amy bent over her.

“My child!” and her voice was fearfully altered—“I shall not see the light of another glorious morning. I must see our good clergyman once more. Let him and Percy both come, for my hours are numbered.”

The nurse aroused from her slumbers, hurried from the room, and Amy with a strength which seemed as given in the hour of need, held a reviving cordial to Mrs. Bryant's lip, and wiped the damps from her brow. But a few moments elapsed, ere Percy and the silvery-headed old man, whose lessons had taught both mother and daughter to look beyond this veil of woe, entered the room. Percy folded his arms around the waist of his beloved, who stood pale as marble, but calmly, at the bedside; and the old pastor kneeling down, prayed fervently for the departing soul. An expression of peace and serenity gave the features of Mrs. Bryant almost a celestial beauty; with sudden strength she raised her head from the pillows that supported her.

“Come nearer, my children,” she whispered, and clasped their hands together. “Here at this solemn hour let me see my daughter united to him who will cherish her when I am gone.”

Amy hid her face in the pillow—“Oh! mother, dear mother, not now.”

“Yes, dearest, now, and I shall die happier—knowing that one good and noble has her happiness in keeping.” Exhausted she sunk back.

Percy raised the pale girl, and signed to Mr. Danby; and amidst the convulsive sobbings of deep grief, did Amy Bryant become the bride of him whom she so reverenced and loved. The rite was over, and she sunk on her knees beside her mother, whose hand was raised in dying blessings on her fair head, whilst her face was touched with a mother's holy love. That hand fell motionless, and Percy folded his bride to his heart, and felt she was an orphan; with none in the wide world but him to support and cherish her.

There was the sound of many feet in the quiet dwelling of the officer's widow, and more than one mourning carriage was at the humble door; for there were those amongst the good and great who had both loved and esteemed her, and who were now gathered to pay the last sad tribute of respect to her remains.

The funeral train moved slowly on; and in a pleasant sunny nook of the old church yard, a spot chosen by herself, it stopped. The touching service of the dead was read above her, and “dust committed to dust.” Amy was in her darkened chamber struggling with her passionate grief; but Percy Roscoe bowed his head in manly sorrow as the solemn words fell upon his ear.

When he returned to the mournful dwelling, he found Amy kneeling before a picture of her mother, and weeping bitterly. He drew her to his heart, and gently and seriously led her thoughts to that world where we shall meet the spirits of the “just made perfect.” Her agitation became almost alarming, and bursting from his arms she flung herself at his feet, exclaiming:

“Oh! Percy, I cannot deceive you. Even my sainted mother seems to look down in reproach upon me. I will not deceive you at this solemn hour; I will take that mother's last counsels. I have again seen lady Tracy; she has been here. Oh! do not! do not utterly forsake me,”—as he started back as if a serpent had stung him—“I have none but you”—and she clasped her hands wildly before him. For one moment the high-minded Roscoe covered his face. Disappointment, pity, and indignation were struggling for mastery, mingled with that sense of bitterness in being deceived in those we love; but the solemn scenes of the last two days had taught him true lessons of humbleness and humility. He looked upon the bowed head of the stricken one, thought of the holy vow by the dying bed, and of his own deep love for her from early youth. He raised her from her fallen posture, and placing her beside him, smoothed back the rich tresses which laid in disorder upon her throbbing forehead, and impressed a kiss upon it as he whispered:

“Poor child! far be it from me to add a pang to your sufferings; they are punishment enough. No, Amy, I will not cast you off—I will not even require a promise, lest you feel tempted to break it. Your blessed mother's last words must ever be held too sacred for you again to mingle in friendship with lady Tracy. I forgive you, dearest—but oh! never let your husband have the misery of finding his confidence misplaced.”

“Bless you, dear Percy, for these kind words, one look of harshness would have broken my heart;” and her head sunk down upon his shoulder, whilst tears, no longer those of bitterness, but of chastened sorrow, fell from her eyes.

Percy Roscoe did well to dread Lady Tracy's being the intimate of his affianced wife. She was a woman of fashion, and it was known that she played deeply, although over her vices there was thrown the veil of refinement and sensibility. She was but a few years older than Amy, and in her earlier days the lady had become passionately attached to Percy. He read her character at a glance, and she saw in the scorn with which he treated her that the mask of gentleness had not concealed the harsher traits that deformed her mind and character. Years passed on, and to gratify her ambition and love of riches she gave her hand to lord Tracy. His mansion was near the humble dwelling of Amy Bryant. She saw Percy's look of proud triumph as he gazed upon the beautiful girl who had given him her pure heart, and she marked that fair being as her victim. But Amy now felt, as she saw even her proud-souled Roscoe, forgive and pity her, that henceforth Isabel's arts would be of no avail.

But a single year had gone by, and Percy Roscoe's destiny had known a change. From being dependent upon his own talents and the income arising from the small estate that was his own in right of his mother, he had become possessed, by the successive deaths of his father and uncle, of the broad lands and the earldom of Clevemont. But although his house was the resort of the learned and good, of the high and noble, and his beautiful wife the star of fashion, there were those who loved him, that deemed their Percy's smile was less joyous than of old, and his brow more clouded than it was wont to be before his marriage. If he was unhappy, none knew it, and as he still looked with pride and fondness upon the fair face of Amy even in the festal hall, the world pronounced them a most happy couple.

The young countess was alone in her dressing room, when her attendant brought her a note; she glanced at the superscription, and her manner betrayed agitation as she perused its contents.

“Who brought this note, Ellis?” and she raised her eyes languidly from the paper.

“A person muffled in a large cloak, my lady; she would come in, and says she will see you.”

A proud flush rose to the cheek of the lady. “I may not deny her,” she murmured to herself; “I have tempted fate and must abide by it. Did lord Clevemont say he should not return 'till evening?” said she to the attendant.

“Yes, my lady. I told him that when you came in from your drive with lady Glenrock, you were so tired you had fallen asleep on the couch, and he told me to say he should dine out.”

Lady Clevemont sighed deeply. “Ellis! I believe you are faithful. Go to the person who waits below and conduct her here, and see that I am not interrupted whilst she remains.”

The waiting-maid left the room, and soon returning, ushered into the presence of the young countess a female of surpassing beauty. Amy rose up, and with mingled dignity and sadness greeted her as soon as Ellis closed the door.

“What does the lady Tracy,” she asked, “wish of the Countess of Clevemont, that she so unceremoniously forces herself into her presence?”

“Countess of Clevemont!” reiterated the other with a scornful curl of her proud lip—“Methinks you have a bold bearing, lady, for one whose destiny hangs on my slightest word. What if I whispered to the haughty Percy that his worshipped Amy had once both won and lost at play?”

Lady Clevemont buried her face in her trembling hands whilst she exclaimed—“But once, Isabel—you know it was but once, and then I was deceived; and have I had peace since? Does not the thought of that hour come to me in the festal hall? by my once happy hearth? and at the dark midnight hour when other eyes are closed in sleep? Does it not dreg with bitterness my cup, till at times my brain almost maddens? And did not you, you Isabel Tracy, lead me to the brink of the precipice? But I know you now, your mask is off.”

“But not the less are you in my power, fair countess,” replied Isabel with a smile of hatred and malice seldom seen on woman's face. “Not the less in my power. You cower and turn pale before your lord, I have read you well—lady, you fear him; and ere you would have him learn this secret you would lay down your young life. Well! Amy!” and her voice changed to one of insinuating softness—“you take this too much to heart, I will not betray you, but my losses are so heavy I dare not apply to Lord Tracy; lend me the sum I required in my note, and I will keep the secret for ever.”

Amy unclasped her hands from her convulsive features—“Isabel Tracy, I have already wronged the industrious poor to comply with your exorbitant demands; and when I again asked Clevemont for money but yesterday, his answer was stern as he said, “Amy, my fortune will not gratify boundless extravagance. I owe now more than the sum I have by me.” No! Isabel, I cannot give you this.”

“The countess of Clevemont will smile to-night when she welcomes her lord after he has seen Isabel Tracy”—and gathering her cloak about her she turned to go. Her hand was upon the knob of the door, when Amy springing forward arrested her progress—“There, lady Tracy,” and she flung down her purse at her feet—“Take all I have, but keep this secret; and now depart, with the malison of a breaking heart upon your head.”

“Thank you, lady, for the kind wish,” and with a scornful laugh she took it up and left the apartment.

A half hour after, Ellis entered the dressing room, and found her lady in a deep sleep. “Surely my lady is in a strange way,” she muttered, “to lay down with all this finery in which I dressed her for lady Glenrock's dinner.” Had she but looked beneath the pillow that supported the flushed cheek, she would have seen by the label'd phial there, why the slumber of her mistress was so deep and quiet.

“Whither away, Clevemont!” and lord Glenrock linked his arm in that of his old friend and schoolmate—“Come, we dine, en famille to-day. Go hence with me, Emily told me your wife had promised her to steal this day from her crowd of appointments, and pass it quietly with her.”

“Indeed! well then, my dear Glenrock, I will accept your invitation. Amy and I so seldom now know what quiet is, that I almost wish at times that title, fortune, and all this splendour were bestowed on some one else, and I again the plain Percy Roscoe, with my small estate and my young bride; for I hardly recognise her in the admired countess of Clevemont. But I ought to be proud of her.” The sentence ended with something very like a sigh.

“Percy,” said his friend, after a moment's thoughtful pause, “I may incur your displeasure, but both Emily and I have felt of late that your young and beautiful wife was treading on dangerous ground; Emily loves her sister-in-law, and has tried to win her confidence for your sake, but Amy is cold towards her, which you know is wholly unlike the affectionate kindness with which she treated all the members of your family the first few months of your marriage. I have read deeply the human character, and am convinced that there is something preying on her mind of which you are ignorant. I think, Clevemont, that she fears you.”

“Fears me!” exclaimed the astonished husband; why, Glenrock, you certainly have judged wrongly in this instance at least. Amy cannot fear me, for I have given her no cause for such a feeling—from my hands she has ever received kindness and indulgence. Believe me, my friend, that both you and Emily are mistaken; let us drop this subject.”

Dinner had been announced and served, but lady Clevemont did not make her appearance, or send any apology, and Percy was beginning to feel symptoms of alarm, when a message came that visitors at home prevented her ladyship from fulfilling her engagements with her sister-in-law.”

“Since that is the case, Emily,” said Clevemont, “why you must e'en go home with me and help her to entertain them; and pulling the bell he ordered the carriage.

They found Amy in the drawing room in the most brilliant spirits. Never had she appeared so beautiful, never so gay—

“She was like
A dream of poetry, that may not be
Written or told, exceeding beautiful!”

And her husband's eye followed her graceful form with an expression of love and pride—not so Glenrock and the watchful Emily. There was something unnatural in this excess of spirits, something unlike her sweet and almost pensive manners since the death of her mother, and they knew from the tone of her laughter that there was no mirth in it.

“Remember, to-morrow night, dear lady Clevemont,” said one of the ladies at parting.

“To-morrow night, Mrs. Devan,” interrupted Percy, “what plot are you laying to entice my little wife from home so soon again? These late hours will destroy her bloom.”

“Did she ever look more beautiful, my lord? 'Tis my masquerade night, and have her company I must—you may come too and play Argus;” and with these words the lively lady ran off.

“More money, Amy! why my dear girl you must be jesting with me. But this week I gave you bills to a large amount, surely you have not spent them already; you are only trying to see how far my indulgence will carry me.”

“I am not used to jest upon such subjects,” she answered, and for once in her life, in a proud and resentful tone. “I have not always had money at my command, and perhaps I am not prudent enough for lord Clevemont's wife.”

Percy took her hand in his, and for one moment gazed steadily in her face. Her glance fell beneath that earnest gaze. “Amy, you are strangely altered, but if money can give you happiness you shall have it;” and putting a roll of bills into her hand he hastily left the room.

She stood a moment motionless when he had left her; then glancing at the paper she muttered, “So! I am estranging all I love from me.”

* * * * * * * * *

There was a pause in the dancing, and one after another of the strange figures in the lighted halls of Mrs. Devan were seen filing off in the direction of the refreshment rooms. One mask has singled out lord Clevemont. It was one in the character of a sybil, and more than once it crossed his path. At last put out of temper at its pertinacity, he determined to accost it.

“What does the sybil wish of the Earl of Clevemont that she so often crosses his path?” Percy had taken off his mask for air.

“To ask him if happiness dwells in his lordly home—but I read my answer on his brow. But I will shadow forth to him a page in the book of his blithesome wife's destiny. The sparkle of the diamond lights her brow, but in mockery of the aching heart.”

“And she will walk in silk attire
And siller have to spare,”

whilst the poor tradesman follows her carriage with maledictions upon her head. You pour the gold into her lap, and it buys her a respite from disgrace. Percy Roscoe, I am a true prophetess—your household gods are broken.” And ere he collected himself to reply, she lifted her mask, and discovering the features of lady Tracy, was about to pass him, when he grasped her arm firmly, and in a voice hoarse with conflicting emotions, exclaimed—“Fiend! what do you mean? Give me proof that your words are true, for lady Clevemont would not bend to associate with such as thou; answer me, Isabel Tracy”—and he grasped her arm almost convulsively.

“Proof! lord Clevemont,” replied she with a laugh of scorn. “Here I have proof, such as you would give all your broad lands did not exist. Ha! my lord, when you laid an interdict upon the friendship of your wife for me—when you held me up to her as one to be shunned—then, even then did I vow a vow of revenge against you. Read that packet, my lord”—and she flung a sealed one towards him, “and see there that your own fair Amy has like me lost some of your goodly thousands at the card table”—and snatching her arm away she darted amidst the crowd, leaving him amazed and stunned.

But he was soon aroused by the return of the dancers, and with an effort that cost him a more bitter pang than he had ever experienced, he passed through the assembled crowds with a jest for one, a smile for another, and gaining the street door was in a moment in the open air. It blew freshly upon his fevered brow, and seemed to allay the burning thoughts within. He sought his own mansion, and forbidding the servants interrupting him, locked himself up in the library.

But there was another listener to the conversation of Percy with lady Tracy.—Amy, the ill-fated Amy; and as her husband left the spot, with one sharp cry she sunk insensible to the floor. A multitude was in a moment around her, and her mask taken off.

“Lady Clevemont fainted!” was echoed from one to another, till the sound reached lady Glenrock. In a moment she was by her side, and she was borne into an inner room; but it was long ere she opened her eyes, and when she did, the expression was so cold and wandering as to terrify her sister.

“Will some one call lady Clevemont's carriage, where is my brother?” But lord Clevemont had been gone some moments, and Amy was conveyed to the carriage by Lord Glenrock, who with his wife supported her in it.

“Is your master at home, Robert?” asked he of the old man who was now butler to lord Clevemont, and who with Martha hastened into the hall at the first intimation of their lady's illness.

“Yes, my lord, he came in a few minutes ago, but forbid our disturbing him. But see, my lady is reviving.”

With a powerful effort Amy roused herself, and smiling faintly, said, in a low tone, “Do not be alarmed, Emily, I am better now, and will lie down in my dressing room.”

Lady Glenrock did not leave her 'till she saw her in a seemingly quiet slumber, and even then charged old Martha to remain by her side, whilst she sought the earl. Something was wrong she knew, for it was not like her attentive and affectionate brother to leave his wife alone in so public a place. She knocked at the library door, but no answer was returned. “Percy! dear Percy! I must see you. Amy is ill.”

At that sound the earl opened the door, but so deadly pale that she recoiled in alarm and amazement.

“Percy! what has happened! Something dreadful I know!” and she clasped his cold hand.

“Look here, Emily,” said he, in a tone hoarse with emotion, and he drew her to the table, upon which was scattered bills and papers. “Look there, Emily, and read how my trusting confidence has been abused;” and he buried his face in his hands as he sunk upon a seat.

Lady Glenrock, in terrified astonishment, saw bills to a large amount against her sister-in-law, unpaid; and notes from Isabel Tracy demanding money as the price of her silence respecting Amy's heavy loss to herself at play. She looked upon her lofty, spirited, generous brother, and thought of his tender love that had sheltered Amy when she was a lone orphan in the world, and of that young girl, too, with the deepest compassion. She felt the fire was quenched on the hearth-stone, the beautiful links in the chain of domestic happiness broken forever, and tears fell fast from her eyes. She laid her hand upon her brother's burning forehead as his head was bent down, and whispered tenderly of consolation.

“She is very, very young yet, Percy—but a child in the ways of the world.”

“But not the less able to discriminate between right and wrong, truth and falsehood. No, Emily, my idol is fallen, the fair temple despoiled of its beauty. I cannot forgive. She in whom I garnered up my heart, whose love was to me as some sweet star smiling upon my destiny, to deceive and distrust me! To forget the solemn scenes by her mother's deathbed. No! I cannot forgive. We must part.”

“Oh! do not say so, Percy. Cast her off, and who in the wide world can she cling to?” But ere she could finish the sentence Ellis rushed into the room, with horror imprinted upon every feature of his pale countenance.

“Oh! my lord, come quick, my lady has swallowed poison!”

They waited to hear no more. Lord Clevemont rushed to the hall—sent a servant for the physician, and almost distracted, entered the dressing-room. There was Amy, with the diamond still sparkling upon her pallid brow, and the festal robe around her, struggling in the arms of her old attendant. The fatal phial was by her side, and her cheek flushed to the deepest crimson, mocked the red rose wreath whose leaves were not yet withered in her hair. She had sent old Martha away for one moment, to get her something with which to quench her feverish thirst, and in the interim swallowed the laudanum. She shrieked violently when she beheld her husband, but he firmly supported her in his arms, till the physician came. The most powerful antidotes were administered, and owing to the timely discovery of Ellis, with success, but Dr. Morris, who was an old and confidential friend, called Clevemont from the room.

“My lord, I am sorry to pain you, but I fear the life of your lady hangs on a thread. Some great shock has been sustained, and the powerful remedies to which I have been obliged to have recourse, have prostrated her strength. Perfect quiet is necessary. I will myself remain through the night, for I fear the result.”

Percy wrung the hand of the good old man, with a heart too full for words, and again took his station by her pillow. The pale and altered girl was unconscious that they hovered round her couch, and the doctor's fears were well founded. Before morning she was raving in delirium, and fever was racking her frame. For days and weeks life did indeed hang on a thread, and when she was able for the first time to rise from her bed of sickness, none would have recognised in the attenuated and melancholy looking being before them, the once admired and caressed lady Clevemont. Not one word of explanation had passed between herself and Percy, nor did she once meet her husband's eye, but she saw the smile had vanished from his lip, and that many lines of painful thought marred the beauty of his glorious brow. He was kind and gentle in his manner, but the heart of woman felt that there was a change. The charm was gone, and steeped in tears of bitterness, did she deplore her own folies.

She was now able to sit up all day, and one morning when Lady Glenrock had left her alone for a few moments, she was startled by the entrance of her husband. She trembled almost to fainting, but the earl kindly inquired after her health, and seating himself by her, said, in a serious and quiet tone:

“Lay aside fear, Amy. I came not to reproach you, neither am I a stern and harsh tyrant, that you should be afraid to meet my eye. No! we have suffered too much, and your punishment has been sufficient. I came but to say that your debts are now all cancelled, and such measures taken that Lady Tracy cannot, by her malicious asseverations, injure your good name. Take my forgiveness also. In the first moment of wretchedness, I was tempted to part from you forever, but your dying mother's charge prevented me; and Amy, forget not now that Being whose promises cheered her last hours. Go to him in penitence, and pray for strength to resist temptation in future.”

Months passed on, and again Lady Clevemont was in the world's “crowded mart.” The brilliancy of her beauty had become dim, but there was an indescribable charm in her low thrilling tones that touched the heart of the hearer—they were so sadly plaintive. She was not happy amidst her splendor. She missed the fond smile that had once beamed upon her even in the place “where dancers meet;” the affection that had once anticipated every want. Kind as was Percy, there was wanting the charm of mutual confidence and love; and to her heart's inmost recesses did she feel the difference. Change was, indeed, on her spirit's dream of happiness.

“What reason have you for refusing to visit Lady Tracy?” one day asked Mrs. Devon. “Poor soul, she is in poverty now, and in bad health too. Do come with me, Lord Clevemont will not know it.”

“Never!” replied Amy, “and, Mrs. Devon, oblige me by avoiding the mention of her name in my presence. It is painful to me.”

It was extremely cold, and the young countess preferred the comfort of her own fire-side to a dinner engagement with Mrs. Devon. Lord Clevemont too was in the drawing room previous to going out, and had taken up a book, when a servant entered and presented his lady with a note. She turned pale as she saw the handwriting, and for a moment hesitated. Percy was apparently absorbed in his book, but he saw her change of colour. The footman left the room, and without breaking the seal, she stept lightly up to her husband:—

“I have a note from Lady Tracy, Lord Clevemont,” (it was a long time since she had called him Percy,) said she, in a voice she vainly endeavoured to render steady, whilst the colour deepened on her cheek, and her air was less humble than it was wont to be of late, “will you break the seal and peruse its contents?”

Her lord took it from her hand, with something of coldness in his manner, and the tears started into her eyes. Do I deserve this, was her thought, as she felt that she could have concealed the contents had she been so inclined. Surely he might have seemed pleased that I practised no deceit.

The earl folded it up after glancing over it, and for a moment bent down his head in thought. “Lady Tracy wishes to see you, Amy. You can go if it is your wish.”

She felt wounded by his manner, and drawing up her slight person, she haughtily replied, “I have no wish to act directly contrary to what I know would be Lord Clevemont's commands.”

“It is my wish now to have you visit your once gay friend, but I shall accompany you. Isabel Tracy can never injure you more. She is on her deathbed!”

The countess drew back and shuddered. “I cannot go!” was her involuntary exclamation.

“Yes, Lady Clevemont, that you MUST go is NOW my COMMAND.”

“I will obey it then,” and a pang wrung her heart when she thought how considerate Percy once was, and how anxious to spare her feelings.

The carriage of Lord Clevemont stopped before the door of a small dwelling in one of the by-streets of the great metropolis, and he handed Amy out, and was shown into a low dark room, where, upon a dingy couch, and supported by pillows, was the faded form of the once brilliant Lady Tracy. Poverty and disease were fast doing their work of death, and at intervals a racking cough threatened existence itself.

“Well, my lord,” said she, in a hollow tone, as they approached her, “you are willing at last for your young wife to come into the presence of Isabel Tracy. 'Tis well! for she has no longer reason to fear her. The serpent is deprived of his sting;” and her wild laugh rung fearfully on the ear of the trembling countess.

She knelt beside the couch, and essayed to clasp the wan thin hand of Isabel. Her sweet face wore an expression of angelic pity as she murmured, “I forgive you, Isabel, from the bottom of my soul, I forgive you.”

“Forgive me”—and her eye for a moment softened—“Poor child, you have much to forgive, for I have cast to the dust your golden fabric of happiness; but at times, Amy, I have sorrowed over your fate—no matter, it could not serve you.” Then turning suddenly to Percy she tauntingly exclaimed—“Ere I knew the dark passions that have since stained my soul with crime, I loved you, Earl of Clevemont, whilst you were the poor Percy Roscoe. You cast my love from you as a worthless thing, and bowed to yon trembling girl. I saw she feared you, and I saw you worshipped her as pure and faultless. I vowed revenge, and, Clevemont, I have had it. I strewed thorns in your path of flowers. I have thrown a cloud over the sunshine of your proud home, and broken the silver link of confidence forever. And now, neglected by my friends, deserted by the man I never loved, and in poverty and death, I tell you I do not repent.”

“Oh! Isabel Tracy, turn to Him, who will pardon even at the last hour. He can soften and support you even at this dread time. Oh turn to him, Isabel.”

“It is too late, Amy, my doom is sealed, my sands run low. I am sorry I have made your misery, young girl, but glory in destroying his happiness. I cannot conquer the evil passion of my heart; take warning by me.” And her gestures and words became so wild, they summoned the nurse.

They remained some time longer, and endeavoured to lead the poor sufferer's mind into a better state, but she remained sullenly silent, and with heavy hearts they left her dwelling.

That night Isabel Tracy died.

Amy was deeply affected by this event, but Christmas was approaching, and they removed to Clevemont castle to celebrate it, as all the members of Percy's family assembled together at that time. With a feeling of loneliness she wandered through the lordly apartments of her splendid home, and memory flew back to the little cottage, and pleasant village where she had first met her husband; but her guests claimed her attention, and the kindness and caresses of Emily won her from her melancholy.

Christmas day came, and the sounds of mirth and festivity rung through the castle. The song floated round, and the merry dancers were leading many a gay measure.

“Come Amy, lead one dance with me,” said lord Glenrock, “I shall believe you are studying the stars if you linger so long beneath the concealment of yon crimson drapery.”

“I never dance, now,” she answered.

“Not dance!” exclaimed a young lady near, “why how whimsical—well, your lord does, and is going to waltz with me.”

Amy sighed, and turned away.

The festival was over, one by one the guests sought their carriages or rooms, and the countess was alone in the ball room, with the flowers yet breathing freshness around, and the lamps burning brightly. She leaned her head against the marble ornaments of the fireplace, and the past came straining over her heart with its sweet memories. On her dressing table that day had glittered many a costly present, but from her husband she had received no gift, and tears fell fast and thick from her eyes. She started from her despondent attitude in amazement. Her husband's arm folded her to his heart, and his voice in the kind tones of old whispered—“Let there again be love and confidence between us, dear Amy. I knew you must be made to feel deeply the effect of your want of confidence, and the follies it led you into, that the impression might be lasting. Your punishment is over; I know you have resisted temptation. I have suffered more than yourself in maintaining a cold manner, when I longed to fold you to my heart in approval and love. Let the past be forgotten—but why do you weep?” “Dear Percy!” was all she could say, as she laid her head on his shoulder, and wept with almost childlike tears from happiness. “You thought yourself forgotten to-day, but I have a gift for you, dearest;” and as he bent to her lips with the kiss of reconciliation, he whispered—“One you will prize more than pearl or gem—the restored affection and confidence of your husband.”